Not everyone is Perfect.....

school is kinde boring, i just don't learn anything right now, but i have my art history exam comming up next wednesday, so that means that i will be reading +- 270 pages about art/music and dans.
Wich is normally not so bad,but if you don't have time....

So on saterday the tenniscourts here in denekamp are gonna open officially, but me and a friend are hoping that we can play tomorrow...

tomorrow 1 April, not a good day, the day where the play pranks on you, ...

So i also heared that that woman in us. Died ( the one who was in a coma ) and i thougt that was really terrible, how can a person just decied, well thats enough, i'm sorry but you've lived long enough.. and today we stop feeding you. Well she's with god now, and she wont have to suffer no more, but the i do wonder, what will happen when the husband dies... what will god say??

i'm really hoping that i will get my phone tomorrow, cause i am going to Utrecht on saterday, i am going to visit my new school ( college ) and i am really exited. My sister is also comming with me, it's only 2,5 hours by train so...:D

that's it for now, hopefully i will have something more interesting to tell ya'll tomorrow,
I just finished watching Hugh grants: About a boy, and I really must say: VERY GOOD MOVIE, so if you haven't seen it:

GO WATCH IT

thats it for now,

sleep tight

Michael

I did it, i cant believe it..

I got up at 01.10 this morning, turned on the computer and went to ebay.,.. @ 01.17 the auction was due to end and I was determined to WIN, and so i came, saw and conquered.... YES YES YES YES..
I'm so happy,


Like everyday now, school just sucks and there's really not to tell much about that, just usseles classes, where i really don't learn anything.. so depressing.. :S


just went to the tennis courts to see if the clay courts are allready open, but no...
Tommorow will be the day where the tenniscourt will be open for the public,...

Now much to tell right now, meaby later

Cya

Michael

ok so i got there phone call from my pastor..

someone found theire way to my weblog,.. and as you may have read i asked myself why is erveryone against downloading.. but then why does my pastor has so many burners in his hous???


ok just let me make one thing clear..



IN THIS WEBLOG I JUST WRITE THINGS THAT COME TO MY MIND AT THAT TIME, AT THE TIME I FELT ATTACKT BY THE REST OF THE CHURCH BECAUS I HAD A DIFFRENT OPPINION ABOUT DOWNLOADING. AND THAT IS WHY I ASKED MYSELF THAT QUESTION...
( hope that this is enough)
I did NOT in any way try to put my pastor in a bad position, ofcouse i know that the reason he uses the burners to sell his studies to other people, in the hope that they learn from them..

It makes me sad, that some people just dont get the point of a weblog, it's all about letting of some steam !!









anyways, some1 printed out my story and showed him that, and i got a phone call from him....
I made him sound hypocritical or something like that.. .. hmmm
well anyways i'm just thinking about being less actif on the website.. and i am not goiing to visit church the next few(8) weeks anyway's ( due to tennis obligations )


somehow this makes me think of moby, i really don't know how..:

Why does my heart
Feel so bad?
Why does my soul
Feel so bad?

hmm, just a weird phone call,

it just makes me feel that i can't express myself anymore..

oh yes.. and to you.. who ever printed this article.. IT HAS COPYWRITE>> !!!!!!! ( lol )

Michael

school can be so boring, i can't even begin to tell you

for example this morning,

we had a Test, which wasn't for a grade, so just for fun..
And it startet at nine .. but everyone had a class wich startet at 8.30, so nobody knew if we had to attent
the class or not, so I decided to split it, and i went to school al 8.45 and I went to the classroom but nobody was there.

So at 9 o clock the test started, we had to go to an computerclassroom.. and we got the instructions how to manage the computer,
And then the test started, it was about art history ( bauhaus, the netherlands in de 17 th centurry bla bla bla ) and the test took more than 3 hours.

And then ofcourse everyone was free and went home, execpt for me :S I have a class called: management and organisation, and that is accountanncym and i really HATE that class, i just dont know what got into me whenn i picked that..

anyways.. here i am.. allready waiting a few hours. ..
just for an other 50 minutes where i do absolute nothing......

BUT NOW...
i think that I might have some luck on ebay, I discovert that someone was selling there sidekick.. ( the only one in holland ) and it auction ends in 10 hours.. and only 1 person had placed a bid.

so i am going to wait and then i am goinna get me an hiptop/sidekick !!... SO PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE...



but now i am bored.. bored to death.. not knowing what to do.

so Easter is almost over, just one more day to go,

There was this tv program on yesterday where they asked people : What do we celebrate
with Easter, and there was just one person who came the closest to the right answer, he said: Oh
it had something to do with jesus ( I think )

And that shocked me, I believe that everyone should know that wich easter jesus was crusified and 3 days after he rose from the dead !

I mean, we all celebrate the holiday, but nowadays it's all about the nice food and party at night :S


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anyways, we had a easter breakfast yesterday in curch, and cause my parents are very actif in church we had to be there allready at 9 o clock. Wich is normally not a real problem,but it just happen to be that on saterday on sundat Summer time was installed. So that meanned that we actually went to church at: 7: 45 in the morning
Anyways, breakfast was great and everything was really nicely decorated.
In the afternoon all my family came to my house, and we had dinner to gether, wich was really nice...

But tomorro is the big day,..... Cause on friday there was this cheeting incident and now i have to talk to the teacher about it.. i have to convince here that i did not cheet !!
SO PRAY THAT THAT WILL GO ALLRIGHT,.. just when i thougt the stress was over, it starts all over again :S

btw
like every year.. i did not eat a sincle egg :D

so this past week was straight up: HELL

school:

this week it was a so called: verbal exam week, and i had verbal test's for: german,literature and english,
for german and english we had to lern like 23 pages full of dialog and for literature we had to read the past to years more than 10 books.
And it was just very difficult to prepare for all of that. So thank god, that my dad is from austria, so i don't have a problem with german ( I scored a 9,5 ) and that my mom grew up in canada ( i scored a 9,1 for english ) and literature went good as well, but i dont know my grade yet, but the teacher said that i did good.

Those verbal test's last about 20 to 30 minutes, and 1 class is 50 minutes in my school, and so after every test, i have an 20 minutes where i normally had to go back to my class , but i didn't..
and so the principal stopt me .. and he wanted me to go to detension for 4 HOURS ~~!!!!!
i completely stressed out.. but then i turned out that there were some many people, that instead of detention i got like this masive amount of homework :S S: :S

2day was also hell:

Since i was sick last week, i had to make a test about art history to day, and they put me in a room where i was alone, and the test was 2 parts: 1 was about architecture and 1 about music and dance, and i worked and worked.. and then my penn stopt working and so i wanted to get an other pen from my bag, but the penn was somewhere down at the bottom and so i took my art history book out the bag, i got my new pen, and just at the moment where i put the art book down again.....

not the teacher but the person who was watching me ( who stepted out of the room for a few minutes ) came it..

AND OFCOURSE IT LOOKED LIKE I WAS CHEETING !!!!!.. and so he grabed that book and said.. well i am going to give this to you art history teacher bla bla bla

So i fear for the worst...
cause i know for sure that the man will tell my teacher that i was cheeting.. bla bla

OMG OMG OMG. i just feel so bad... who is gonna believe me.. NO-ONE ~~!


so, today the whole easter thingy thats.. and like everyone else i have to go to church 2night and on sunday twice :S.. and there are a lot of good movies on tv so thats a bonus ( keeps my mind of things )

On Monday i had to play tennis, and i won ( yeeey) it was my first match of the new summerseason, and yesterday i had to play again and i won again..
and so i now made it to the semi finals and i have to play again tomorrow, and i just really hope i win, but i do need to step up a bit, cause the level i was playing yesterday was really bad,

well that's it for now,
gotta get ready for church..

Michael


i'm going to the darklands
to talk in rhyme
with my chaotic soul
as sure as life means nothing
and all things end in nothing
and heaven i think
is too close to hell
i want to move i want to go
i want to go
oh something won't let me
go to the place
where the darklands are
and i awake from dreams
to a scary world of screams
and heaven i think
is too close to hell
i want to move i want to go
i want to go
take me to the dark
oh god I get down on my knees
and i feel like i could die
by the river of disease
and i feel that i'm dying
and i'm dying
i'm down on my knees
oh i'm down
i want to go i want to stay
i want to stay

there i just something wrong with me,
After beiing like sick for 10 days, and now i am still nog feeling fit, my skin is fucked up, some kind of UBER WEIRD allergic reaction to something but i dont know..

my throat is completely read and my cheeks are a mess.. god i cant go out like this...


thank god that i only had 1 class to day,



ok so this week will be a very difficult week. I have 2 verbal test's one in literature and one in english dialog. One on wednesday and one on thursday. And i also have to preach on wednesday so.. strez strez streS..

and tonight i will be playing my first tennismatch of the summerseason, but there CAn be a small problem.
when i signed up, i failled to read the rules completely.. and now i saw that the tournament was for 18 and older..
ok now i am 17 and i am going to be 18 in 3,5 month's so i'm hoping that it won't be a problem

Ok, something is just very wrong on blog spirit..
I tried 3 times already to post something to day, but it just refused


So here again.. An other try!


So I was still not feeling ok to day, so I decided not to go to school.

At my school the senior classes get to pick the theme for the last day of school. And everyone got to enter an Idea. And my idea was: X-Pornstar (party)
And it was today that the student got to decided. And I heard that they had to choose between: Wild West and Oktoberfest.. But nobody really liked it very much so that’s why they changed it at the last minute and ( just for the fun of it ) guess what the theme will be..




You’ve guessed it !!


So I’m still looking for a job, here in Holland everyone starting at the age of 13 has a weekend job. Just a little something to make some xtra cash. I’ve already had many jobs but at the moment I’m jobless. A month a go I applied to work at a gas station. But the owner gave me the complete resonsebility for: 12 gas pomps and the shop and the cash register.. and since I am only 17, that was just to much for me.
And a week ago I applied for a job as a kitchen help in a restaurant, and we scheduled a meeting for today. But since I was still feeling sick, and I had changed my mind about working there, I decided not to go. And since they had my phone number I kept the line busy all afternoon ( I KNOW I KNOW _--> DON’T JUGDE ME , I’m normally not like that )

So tomorrow my parents are leaving for they’re trip around the world ( no just kidding..) they are going on a holiday, and I will have the house to my self. And I am really looking forward to that. My grandma will cook me dinner, so I don’t have to starve to death.

These past few day’s I’ve been intensely watching the world championships: figure Ice-skating. And I must say, that it is a very difficult sport and I have much respect for those people


Ok ok, enough said for today

Au revoir

Michael


Oh yes I almost forgot, the theme for the last day of school will now be :

PIMP’S AND BITCHES ( and if you think of it.. it’s almost the same as X-pornstar )
OK how pimperish it that.. just add some bling bling and ur done :D

Whaha I'm sick. Sooooooooooow sick :S...
Somehow I caught the cold, and now I have a fever.. and I'm soow hot, and it's 20 degrees outside as well.. :S

I'm getting depressed.. my body doesn't want to do anything.. all I can do is just sit and watch .. ( oprah :D )


All the kids who live nearby are outside just relaxing in the sun..


oh well, I deliberately didn't attend my first class to day at school, I felt sick so I went to school around 10, 10;30
And I just went to school, because I had to give some presentation, So as I went to school, I found out the my presentation was cancled and moves to fryday,//---> straight back home !! and went to bed.. :S


Still nog having any luck on ebay... :S I need to have some knd of strategy cause this ain't getting me anywhere.:S


Still having some issues with the fact how I dress at school, ( I always wear someting über alternative/fashionable ) And since I had some trouble with my throat ( thank u babelfish )
and so i decided to wear this ENOURMOUS scarf around my throat.. ( 2,5 meters long :D )
And when you walk through the school you just FEEL the people watching..
BUT HEY.. FUCK THEM PESANTS !!
at my school you can tell, from what village they come, just by the way they dress,
It's absolute horible ( you can't tell from me btw :D )

and now I'm thinking where to post this.. ( what community ) i could go for school, or Fashion.. lol of travel..

ok I'll go for fashion..

And post a picture of THE fashion designers : VIKTOR AND ROLF !!

So I also want to thank evertone for visiting my weblog.. PLEASE come again soon, and leave a comment !


au revoir

Michael

( getting back in bed :D )

I really want to get away from Holland
but look, who wants to live in holland

MOBY !!


Euro Brochure
Mar 05, 2005 - Brussels
in belgium now.
netherlands tomorrow. if i were to live in europe i would be tempted to either live in belgium or the netherlands.
they're both multi-cultural, interesting, centrally located, nice places with relatively sane political systems.
there are lots of nice places in europe, of course, but belgium and the netherlands would be the most tempting to me.
from brussels you can be pretty much anywhere else in central europe in a couple of hours(even london with the eurostar).
ok, i sound like a travel brochure.
time to go talk about myself to journalists.
moby



oh NO, moby.. you have NO Id, what live in the Netherlands is... !!
OK, i live in NY , and then you can live in denekamp : D

haha